Here is the last post of 2020. Goodbye, 2020, we shall never meet again! I am extremely excited about the New Year, friends. At first, I was thinking about it as just another number, but what makes it special, is more than that. It's our choice to start the new chapter with purpose or intention. What do you want to achieve in the future? Is there anything your heart is longing for? My heart is longing for growth. Growth in my professional, personal, and spiritual life. And today I choose to set this intention for myself by closing the previous chapter that is called 2020. In the new year I won't probably be posting recaps, as I want to set myself free from unnecessary pressure. Instead, I am going to write what I am passionate about, what warms my heart and helps me grow.
Traditionally let's start with downs of the month
One of the main downs of December was of course my inability to spend Holidays with all my family members. Yes, it was amazing to spend festive season in a calm, stress-free manner, but I still miss my parents and my sister who are far away right now.
Last month I had a plan to stop using my phone as often as I do and focus on my creative work. Well, unfortunately, I failed at that. Instead, I was mindlessly scrolling through Instagram feeds and looking for new videos to watch on YouTube quite often. I am not proud of it, but I was feeling demotivated. I didn't want to come on here and post, I didn't have a desire to share anything on Instagram, either. By the end of the month, I learnt to let go and stop judging myself for my weakness (or what I see as weakness). I forgave myself and let myself be. It provided me with more creative space in my head and motivation to move forward, setting new goals and keeping hope. Hope is incredibly important for my mental health.
Now, onto ups
Last month I finished the book "The Obelisk Gate" by N.K. Jemisin. It concludes my 2020 challenge to read 2 books a month. I am not setting this intention for 2021. However, I am positive about wanting to read more, because it did enrich my life in a magical way. As a person who never liked reading, I am proud of myself for being able to stick to the challenge most months and finishing the books that I started. It feels good.
I filmed quite a few videos as a part of VLOGMAS on my channel last month. I set the intention to film as often as possible in December and I was able to do it. I am proud of myself for creating something that potentially can be helpful to someone who's looking for inspiration and hope.
I also finally found peace coloring. I never could find myself calm enough to do it for a prolong period, but I do feel now that coloring helps me to relax and works as a therapy for me. It's also worth mentioning that it's much easier for me to meditate these days and be present doing whatever it is that I am doing.
So, here was my December 2020. What are your reflections? I want to wish you a wonderful 2021. Please focus on your mental health and make it one of your resolutions: to be less hard on yourself and learn more about strategies that will help you improve your life. I am sending you love and light. I will see you next time, on Pillows&Trees.